Permission Granted

By Evelyn David

One of the things I’m finally realizing, and sadly it’s
taken me way too long to reach this conclusion, is that I need to stop
apologizing for being me. I certainly have given that lecture more times than I
can count as my kids were growing up. Encouraging them to be independent; “own”
their accomplishments; have their own opinions; acknowledge their fears – and never apologize for their
emotions. But I can talk the talk better than I can walk the walk. I’ve spent
way too much time hiding or putting on a brave face or making fun of myself for
my own preferences and fears.

Now one can say, fake it until you make it. And that’s
certainly true in many situations. But in this particular case, I’m talking
about experiences in life that are optional. Or in my case, I’m talking about
fear of flying. I hate it. The only way I get on an airplane and not make a
total fool of myself is by taking drugs.

And I do that. Several times a year, I have to fly. If the
distance is at all drive-able, I always opt for car over plane. No need to tell
me that the risk of an accident in a car is so much higher than air travel. I
know all the stats and they are meaningless in the face of fear. But in order
to see my sons, one of whom lives in Seattle, the other soon to live in Paris – I’ve got to fly.

But here’s the part that I’m finally realizing. I don’t have to like it. I don’t have to get over it. Sure, it might be
nice if I did, but that doesn’t seem to be happening.  I finally came to terms with: “This is
who I am. I have other stellar qualities I hope, but if I have this particular
fear, stop trying to tease me about it, talk me out of it, or point out how
silly it is.” Most fears aren’t logical. If they were, we’d all be
bungee-jumping off Mt.

Do you have a fear which others think silly? What, if
anything, have you done about it?

By the way, did I mention that I am scared to death of
snakes? There I said it!

Marian, the scaredy-cat half of Evelyn David

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Brianna Sullivan Mysteries – e-book series
I Try Not to Drive Past CemeteriesKindleNookSmashwords
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Undying Love in Lottawatah- KindleNookSmashwords
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2 replies
  1. Debra H. Goldstein
    Debra H. Goldstein says:

    So on point! Thanks for reminding all of us that there are things we may not like about ourselves, but all of them together make up who each of us is. BTW, you need to meet my husband who is so-o-oh afraid of snakes, too.

  2. Sparkle Abbey
    Sparkle Abbey says:

    Marian – Great post! There are those things that no amount of "try this" or "get over it" are going to change and as Debra said, it's just part of who we are. We don't have to like, uhm, for example… spiders.

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